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On my time

25 Jan 2012 Leave a Comment

by ladyg83 in poetry Tags: dating, life, love, no regrets, relationships, the one, time, wink

Pardon me

for not adhering

to your time frame

You look confused

Excuse me

I doubt I’m wrong

Life doesn’t wait

doesn’t hold on

So I’ll take my chance

at happiness

here in the now

I shall not wait

for what you deem

the appropriate time

how asinine

to believe you know

what path is best

I must divest

this authority

you believe to hold

up over me

with certainty

I know I’ve chosen

my fate, the one

the man without

there is no sun

and when my time

is said and done

it’ll be with no regrets

In your own words…

21 Dec 2011 1 Comment

by ladyg83 in poetry Tags: 17, computer, email, friends, geek, hacker, love, relationships, toxic

I (set the scene)
of me at 17
a (computer geek), doing
(legally questionable activities)

The path of
self-destruction paved
but somehow
I came out
(unscathed)

(Toxic friends)
reading your old blogs
remind me of when
(conquering) was such a rush
this crush, I have is
my new (escape)

Maybe I’m
(too aggressive)
need to be less possessive
in (my own pursuit of happiness)

But your words
(resonate) with me
frightening, I find you
oddly exciting
relax and
stop fighting

Let the madness swallow us whole
Years ago
When we both were drowning souls
you wouldn’t have said no
and right now i’m not letting go
until you say yes

With Me

21 Dec 2011 Leave a Comment

by ladyg83 in poetry Tags: angst, bitter, bitterness, death, die, loneliness, teen

(Another poem written in my teen years)

I’ve drained the life out of this shell.
It’s tattered and torn and ready for hell.
It’s served its time and done its part
from crooked toe to wretched heart.

Let me be still and rest awhile
before I’m covered, buried and defiled
devoured by death
surrounded by night
cast in the afterglow
of the moon’s eerie light.

Enough, away
or come out and play.
March down to the glistening sea.
We’ll sing a song and skip along.
Come
and die with me

Give and Take

21 Dec 2011 Leave a Comment

by ladyg83 in poetry Tags: angst, break, done, life, teen

(This was written many many (11) years ago)

Scream, shatter, break.
you never give you only take.
And what you take is all I have
I sit and cry you stand and laugh.

Why not just let me be?
And and this stupid misery.
This misery I live for you
and nothing is what I can do.

One more year to live
There is just one more to give.
And I’ll give until I break.
All you want’s my life to take.

So take it and be done with me.

Year of the dog

20 Dec 2011 3 Comments

by ladyg83 in poetry Tags: heart break, loss, love, relationships

One to love with all my heart
and yet it’s split in two
One of mind and one of body
So what’s a girl to do

One will cherish me forever
One may break my heart
And yet I war within myself
Of whom to choose, where do I start

If only I could have a sign
Or push a pause, a quick rewind
Life it feels, is so unkind

And soon I know, I must embrace
Or neither one shall be my fate

I think I know what I must do
It breaks my heart to say we’re through
Love wasn’t meant for more than two

Please let this be a quick farewell
And break this curse that is your spell
May cupid’s arrow rot in hell

Another perspective

08 Dec 2011 2 Comments

by ladyg83 in poetry Tags: death, dying, fear, helpless, hope, hospital, medicine, patient, surviving

I scream
silently
wordlessly
for from my mouth
no sound does emerge

fitfully I sleep
and
you enter
into my room

you poke and prod me
twist and turn me
i want to tell you
i’m frightened

but i can’t speak

maybe in your own way
you already know

you’ve seen this before
i’m sure

so many like me
feeble, powerless

please
i beg of you
help me to survive
i don’t want to die

just another number
another wristband
another patient
in this hospital

You had me at… Gallifrey

08 Dec 2011 4 Comments

by ladyg83 in poetry Tags: david tennant, docto who, gallifrey, love, scifi, time lord

The beating of his two hearts
to the time he keeps alone
Last of his kind
across the galaxies he roams

He is the savior of mankind
though few know that he exists
some may say he’s just a legend
but he’ll arrive when all is amiss

Companions come and go
only the Tardis carries on
to dance the dance of eons
to fix the right from wrongs

And here I stand
invisible
to the man I wish I knew

And I break a little bit
inside
when you ask me
Docto Who?

You are the… to my…

08 Dec 2011 2 Comments

by ladyg83 in poetry Tags: butterflies, love, Poem, poetry, rain, sunshine

What words can convey
the depth of my emotion..

You are the
sun to my moon,
stars to my night sky.

You are the
reason I dare
to hope and dream
the cause
of all my
butterflies

You are the
umbrella
to my rainy day

When I despair
you heal
my pain

So long I waited
(for you) in my life

And I’d do it all again

So I wrote this poem
to express the words
I longed to say before..

You are my everything
And I couldn’t love you more

Work Haiku

29 Nov 2011 Leave a Comment

by ladyg83 in poetry Tags: freedom, haiku, work

Counting nights ’til I
regain my autonomy.
sweet, sweet freedom comes

Breakup Haiku